Current mood:

sad

My dad passed away today..
I'm back in Melbourne again after 3 days back in Sydney.

..all my mom wants to do is to go to sleep so he can come to visit her. She wants to know he's close by.

He died in the car when my mom was rushing him to the hospital. They said there wasn't anything he could do.

I was just thinking last night that I missed his 54th birthday in May and Father's day this year.... but he gave me a hug when he dropped me off at the airport last Tuesday and told me I can come home for good if I wanted to.

This morning, he asked my mom if she remembered the first time they met. It was the end of the year in 1972. He told her that she let him "touch her" (as in hold hands in those days) so she HAD to marry him.

I always thought we had another 20 years before we had to deal with losing a parent.. but life is just that fleeting, isn't it?

I need something right now. I need to see him. I need to feel him to make sure it's not a dream.

Tomorrow, perhaps...

Take care of your loved ones. It's too painful....